Friday, November 13, 2009

Friday, July 17, 2009

Dry Leaves

…and this is how the story ends…

…leaves fall as we listen the beautiful words of migrating birds… the lament of the trees drooling all over our bodies, concerned about the tragic news… as we speak, dandelions are kissing the feet of our loving memories… so peaceful, yet turbulent as we decide the future of our love…

…remember the leaves? Yes, just like falling leaves, dry falling leaves, spreading throughout the woods, flying to fertilize new soil, just like that, our love becomes fertilizer in other hearts, our melancholy is fertilizing other souls, for we love each other more or less, less than more, more to overcome the fear of loss and regret… we’ve become dry leaves like time and space… we grow older and in an empty maze…

…our love resembled those falling leaves… pushed by air, never knowing when or where to land…

…so as a leaves we fall… gliding to a new ground… wondering which new soil will accept our dry texture…

…life has become the wind, we have become leaves, earth has become our mistress… loneliness our sea of dreams…

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Death becomes her (New York, 2004)

...and as you walk by, I smell the perfume of your recently bathed body... teasing my senses, driving me crazy, making me want you more and more... you know this, you loved teasing me... You make me remember the first day you glanced at me, you had to stalk me... following every step I took, tasting every moment of laughter, knowing I was already yours... you waited for the right moment...

And now, I'm laying here, in this bed, the bed where I shared many moments with you... were we played with ourselves, devouring the flesh of solitude in a second, a second that now becomes an eternity... waiting for you, here I am... why do you look at me like that? You realize I’m seconds from being yours... aren't you delighted; all of a sudden you pity me? You realize my life is too important now... too late... my blood flows out of my body, now my veins are no longer one long river as the Euphrates nor the Nile... How amazing, death, who stalked me, who wanted me so badly, looks into my eyes begging me to survive, to keep struggling until the ambulance arrives... Just realizing it’s not my time...

...so, I Looked at death, straight into her eyes, and I kissed her, caressing her cheeks...saying goodbye... begging her to drive me to my new home... to condemn my soul for eternity to reunite with myself, as I’ve been dead before death noticed...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Honshū, Japan 1232

…and there I was… I could feel the wind caressing my face again… your memories are being erased gently… like shaving from my head… All I’ve done is thinking of you… all I’ve done is dreaming of you and you are there… with him… doing everything that’ll kill me… thinking what will be your next lie to torture me… I don’t blame you… I let you do this to me… I deserve it… I should’ve taken advantage when I could but, it wouldn’t have been me… It would’ve been that man I hate so much, that one I refuse to become…

…Is it something I did wrong? Wasn’t I strong enough… what is “strong enough” ? There is no formula on being the right man… The right man is the man who never lies to Himself… the right man is the one who loves his woman… his children… his beliefs… who is the right man? I am not Him… for I have lied to myself many times into something that had no future… into something that was a total lie… I’ve been fooled by destiny in a very brilliant… killing myself to be there when I knew I will never be able to blend into your ways… again… I fooled myself into believing you’ll blend with mine…

…How do you live a double life? How do you make someone live that with you… when you fake happiness I fake faith… when you fake love I fake tranquility and despair… when you fake yourself…you fake me… I can just bend on my knees and while I cry I pray… I pray for you to be happy… I pray for you to be at peace… I pray the Almighty to have mercy on my soul for all the times I had you first… Forgive me Father for I have not been able to surpass temptation… forgive me Father for not completing my purpose… I fell in love and lost myself …

…another lifetime thrown away by jealousy, love and temptation… good bye now… its time for me to retreat… I am shutting off ‘till my next opportunity, if there is another one…

“Blessed is the man who admits his error and has the courage to deal with its consequences…”

I Shall Never forget my principles… I must follow my code…

• Jin - to develop a sympathetic understanding of people
• Gi - to preserve the correct ethics
• Chu - to show loyalty to one's master
• Ko - to respect and to care for one's parents
• Rei - to show respect for others
• Chi - to enhance wisdom by broadening one's knowledge
• Shin - to be truthful at all times
• Tei - to care for the aged and those of a humble station

Monday, March 16, 2009

Many lives...

…many lives have passed…many wars,
many battles and you my dear, only you can put an end
to this infinite sadness… this endless story of solitude and torment…

…the cold breeze of the night
warms my path throughout this empty and endless road…
my sword gets heavier… my steps are shorter…
my breath exhausted… I can only think of your warm kisses,
that only time I stood by you…
in front of me, wanting to kiss those lips so badly,
knowing that if I kissed you once everything would’ve been just fine…
Now, as I keep looking for my way back to you,
I realize time ran out and the cold night is putting and end to my mere soul…

…why is it every time I die, I die following you? Why?